Okay, the past few and the upcoming next few month have been/will be full of big decisions for me to make, such as moving into an apartment by myself (which I decided to do), starting a new job (since my law firm will be closed down in June due to my attorney moving), starting my own business (Arbonne! Whoop whoop!), etc.
Well if you know me at all, you know that when I am stressed or overwhelmed I usually pick something that isn't that important and fixate/completely obsess over that one aspect of my life.
Well, this time I have chosen decorating my apartment.
I should be fretting over finding a job to pay for my apartment and building my Arbonne business, but noooo....
Now, I am completely aware that my mother is a ridiculously talented interior decorator and any normal human who has a family member like would be able to put this worry on the backburner and focus on the important stuff. Not this human.
I am completely engulfing myself in figuring out exactly how I want my apartment to look. I want it to adult but not too adult. I want it to be cozy with a little elegance to it. I want it to be fancy but comfortable. But then I also want my personality to show in it. I mean, that's not to much to ask is it?...
In a dream world, I would have enough money to buy everything new from Riffraff. After all, that is the cutest/best store of all time. But, since it's in Fayetteville AND I have little to no money to buy anything (not that Riffraff is expensive at all. It's actually ridiculously well priced.), I may just have to settle for picking up a few decorations from Hobby Lobby and call it a day.
If anybody knows of any blogs or websites that has ideas on how to decorate in an non-expensive way, let me know!!!
Be safe in the snow!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Dates with God
Okay, so for the last couple of nights I have had the WORST trouble sleeping! Like, I go to sleep pretty easily, but I wake up about an hour or two later and can't go back to sleep for the life of me!
I've tried everything to fix it. I've tried watching TV until I fall asleep. I've tried turning the TV off before I go to sleep. I've tried reading before bed. I've tried Tylenol PM. Nothing works.
So last night I went to sleep around 11 and woke up about 1 this morning. I was so frustrated because I was SO tired. There was no reason in the world why I shouldn't be asleep.
Normally, this is when my brain goes into overdrive trying to understand why I'm awake. My first thought goes to "well, something must be bothering me." I then brainstorm on what could be bothering me. I then start worrying about everything in my life that isn't going perfectly. And it spirals out of control from there.
Last night, however, I was so frustrated and exhausted that I thought to myself, "Ya know, I don't have to be doing this alone." So, I started talking to God. It started out as, "I mean, seriously, why am I awake? I get cranky when I don't get enough sleep and that's no good for anybody." Then it dawned on me that maybe God is trying to tell me something. I then started talking to Him about things that I have been worried about. Then, it seemed like I started working through things. Things that I had been worried about for a while didn't seem so bad. It was the coolest feeling.
I have to tell you, talking through my problems and worries made me feel SO much better. It was almost like God was waking me up in hopes that I would chat with Him and work through things. I've been really slacking in my conversations with God lately, which is probably why I have so many worries. I'm thankful that He will slap me in the face sometimes (metaphorically speaking, of course) and do things like this to get my attention.
So, tonight if I wake up, I'm just going to consider it my date with God. It's nice to be able to tell him anything. And it's nice that He's always listening. That's so comforting to me.
Until then, though, you may want to steer clear of me until I get my sleeping schedule back! :)
I've tried everything to fix it. I've tried watching TV until I fall asleep. I've tried turning the TV off before I go to sleep. I've tried reading before bed. I've tried Tylenol PM. Nothing works.
So last night I went to sleep around 11 and woke up about 1 this morning. I was so frustrated because I was SO tired. There was no reason in the world why I shouldn't be asleep.
Normally, this is when my brain goes into overdrive trying to understand why I'm awake. My first thought goes to "well, something must be bothering me." I then brainstorm on what could be bothering me. I then start worrying about everything in my life that isn't going perfectly. And it spirals out of control from there.
Last night, however, I was so frustrated and exhausted that I thought to myself, "Ya know, I don't have to be doing this alone." So, I started talking to God. It started out as, "I mean, seriously, why am I awake? I get cranky when I don't get enough sleep and that's no good for anybody." Then it dawned on me that maybe God is trying to tell me something. I then started talking to Him about things that I have been worried about. Then, it seemed like I started working through things. Things that I had been worried about for a while didn't seem so bad. It was the coolest feeling.
I have to tell you, talking through my problems and worries made me feel SO much better. It was almost like God was waking me up in hopes that I would chat with Him and work through things. I've been really slacking in my conversations with God lately, which is probably why I have so many worries. I'm thankful that He will slap me in the face sometimes (metaphorically speaking, of course) and do things like this to get my attention.
So, tonight if I wake up, I'm just going to consider it my date with God. It's nice to be able to tell him anything. And it's nice that He's always listening. That's so comforting to me.
Until then, though, you may want to steer clear of me until I get my sleeping schedule back! :)
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